It' s amazing anymore how fast time is flying by. I mean, I know time has always seemed to get away from me but this is just flat ridiculous! Taylor said to me the other day, "Gosh, Mom, my freshman year is almost over...that went by FAST." I thought, now wait a minute....NO one's torturous freshman year is allowed to just be over that fast...that was the ONE year in my life I wouldn't repeat for any amount of fortune and fame and it seemed to last three lifetimes. No FAIR! But that's just it...life IS flying by and even my slightly self absorbed child is noticing. Oh well, reckon I haven't much choice but to hang on to what I can. You know it's bad when I'm thrilled to get 20 minutes of free time and I choose to use it scrubbing the bath tub...oh, it's SO bad!

I thought I may have killed the slightly self absorbed child Sunday....have I mentioned I'm a bit of a drama queen tho? Taylor came to me with a headache and asked me for Tylenol...I told her my purse was in the car and to go see. Now, a little fleeting thought came into my mind at this point that perhaps, I should have her bring me the bottle but, I was otherwise engaged and dismissed the thought almost immediately. About an hour later, I asked her how her head was. When she looked at me, she didn't look quite right and she said, "It's worse and I'm dizzy. Mom, where did you get that blue and white Tylenol? I've never seen any like that before." Well, I had to swallow my heart back down into my chest....I suddenly remembered my "secret"stash of three diet pills at the bottom of a bottle of ibuprofen. I asked her, "WHAT??? Taylor, were there no orange pills in that bottle??? You took a diet pill!!" She said no, no orange pills and the panic must have been pretty clear in my eyes because at that point, she began to cry. Oh, I felt like such a lousy mom! "What are they going to DO to me?", she asked. My head was racing and I couldn't think clearly...I truly had NO idea what they would do to her. It was at this point that she informed me she'd taken TWO of the pills. After all, she takes two Tylenol at a time. I could have died. I almost cried. The triage nurse on duty at the hospital I called was really helpful...after I explained the situation to her, her earth shattering response to me was, "You need to call a pediatrician." If they come out with an iPhone that has an application for slapping the absolute crap out of the person on the other end...I'm havin one. These are the days when I wonder how we ever made it without Google and the world wide web and smart phones. My common sense began to return to me after skimming thru several web articles on overdosing on amphetamines. It's sad, sad that I can recount experiences where I overdosed on PURPOSE when I was even younger than Taylor is now. But, fact is, I did, I took a whole lot more than Taylor had taken and, I lived. I knew she was going to be okay but that didn't make me feel any better about the whole thing.

Needless to say, she was higher than a kite for a few hours and sleep was pretty much nonexistent for her Sunday night and she was still incessantly licking at her lips yesterday afternoon (I thought she may well eat them off her face) but, she's alive. And the two of us have learned some valuable lessons. I need to be a somewhat more alert mother and we've decided that proper labeling is really important and Taylor has decided that she never EVER wants to take a diet pill again. Thank goodness...I'd rather her not battle like I have. "WHY would anyone want to feel this way on PURPOSE??", she asked. Why, indeed.

Less than two weeks to go til SDS plays in Poteau. I'm finally moving to the relaxed end of stressed and enjoying myself...but that could change in a second. Especially if my stage happens to fall through! I'm hoping this is enough of a pleasant experience that I'll wanna do it once a year. We'll see how the world looks on April 24th.

I'm still fighting food...not as aggressively but it's still a war, nevertheless. I win some days, go down in shame and defeat others, but the good news is, I still rise again the next morning! I figure I'm doin pretty good.